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I
came to the point of love at my inmost heart, and I was glad and at rest,
like unto the end of things. But the point was not a point, it was a doorway
opening both inwards and outwards. Though I had thought to rest there
for ever, I could not do so for long, since my deepest feelings pulled
me. So pushing gently inwards I passed through the doorway and went in.
Then it
was if I had walked onto the palm of the hand of my God, who had now become
my great friend. The palm of His hand was as the most sensitive place
in his heart might be. It was tenderly aware and responsive, so that I
stopped still in case I should hurt it.
In some
strange way the hand was the heart and it extended beyond my understanding
in all directions unto the fingers. While the palm of this great hand
was content to be at rest, as I was, the fingers had a longing in them
to express the nature that was the heart of the hand. The place that had
been a doorway had now become like a whole country opened from within.
As I stood
in the sun of that moment, I was gathered into the song of a bird and
I was with the substance of that song in a way which I had always longed
to be. The sound rained on me and touched my spirit with a quickening,
like a silver dart, which sent it shimmering outwards to all spaces that
lay about me.
Each
phrase of the song of that bird became like a book whose pages I could
have written and drawn on for ever. For I overflowed with the means to
say so much that had only been partly said. I, myself had only been partly
said. But now I was among the saying and the understanding that was a
fullness of my love and the delight of my God, and such gladness was between
us both.
With a voice
that needed no sound, my friend spoke through the whole of the vast country.
His hand and His fingers were full of the expression of each word. The
fingers not only held fast the treasure of the hand, but they were also
the means of discovery. The spirit of this discovery was in need of companions,
and I could be such a companion. For that which remained to be discovered
lay out beyond the finger-tips of God's person in a larger reality of
being.
Although
I had not moved, my understanding had now grown beyond the bird song,
out into the hills and meadows of this land; which land is only a way
of saying the person and quality of this great friend. So, all about me
lay qualities that cannot be said and at last I could be with them and
more truly know myself. I realised how like my friend I had grown in ways
which were yet real to me alone and to Him alone. And there, as I came
abreast a hill, I saw in the distance the camp of His companions and,
as I approached, they were all my companions and were remembered.
Here
was a place where our God met with us and we also met with one another.
Some were concerned with the harvesting of friends from among God's children,
while some were enjoying the fruits of our Being nature, which we all
shared and exchanged with ease. Others spoke of questing out into the
potency of Divine nature, seeking for the refinement of greatness and
beauty. Some went alone, others together and with them went the person
of God in loving company. Such songs went up of sweetness and such chords
were struck of gentleness, matched with burning love and endeavour, that
they continually mingled about the sun. Now and then this caused a great
leap in the heart of the whole hand and the sun flashed outwards to us
all, and the peace, in which all was dressed, became more hushed and more
deeply still, lengthening recognition and kissing the inmost heart of
things.
Those who
went out to the harvest passed through the doorway of the point of love
where I had come in. There they met and discussed their work with those
who lived about that point. Such did not see the door, as I had not seen
it at first. When they were ready, down and outward each team would go.
Some to tend the seed beds, others the garden and others again the fields
that lay about the garden. So the harvest of friends was brought in, through
patience and toil and pain. But it was their work which they longed to
do; seeing in each friend an endless book of pages, filled and unfilled,
to be read and to call forth response with freshness and difference; to
be a delight upon the everlasting hand and to all who know it. Such who
did this work became strong against the darkness of distance in which
the seedlings root, away from the smile direct whose eyes would burn and
hinder their growing and bending, unlike another's as it should become.
For the
affection of the smile and the blue understanding which spreads from the
eyes of God will seal the bond and comes after the growth which can support
it, otherwise the bond is slavery not required. So first that smile begins
to grow within each plant as goodly wholesome care, conceived by each
to please itself alone. Then the foundation is sure and the growing and
bending of the journey builds sure the friend who has no like. None other
can we love aloft towards the doorway of the hand of the great heart.
How
does the gladness grow among those who stay upon the palm of this hand,
living among the hills and streams that cannot be said, who have the bird
and song always and who thrill with the sunflash and the eyes. Long does
the spirit drink such things and far does the loveliness spread when companionship
rejoices unhindered in opal light and gentle ways. For the softness that
becomes us here is strength and the sweetness is understanding, clear
and unconfused; power only serves and is not sought by those who reach
this place. Though beyond and beyond goes His spirit, to be uncovered,
to be disclosed to those who search it out, or deep in their own well
find it.
Then go
up to this house. He will ask you in and She will greet you there. Father
and Mother of us all, dwelling in a valley of the hills that are not,
but are the hand that is the heart always. From this place their spirit
never moves and in this place is the measure of all things kept safely.
But you may go in and touch direct the uttermost. Then you will have the
foundation about you you did not know to need. It remains in the smile
there and all things are borne up by it. This is what is served to every
friend who comes.
The light
of Their eyes is to you and outward through the window is the view that
goes to them that search and find and make and make again. Exploration
and refinement bring back to the table in the hall the subjects of our
gathering there. Here may all experience be added for the furthering;
newly found and ancient, every value is potent to the plan that grows
towards another day, when this day is complete.
So
shall the harvest live on about the uttermost and the persons whose one
life is for all and for friendship, whether They be seen or not, whether
They be understood or not. They look upon their children to see who will
stand and bear this friendship everlasting; or if, sadly, too much modesty
or too much virtue may cause them to melt from this. Knowing no friend
but Holiness, there can be no room in their ungathered love for such a
self, it was somehow shamed away. Yet I see upon the table in the hall
a project offering hands again to each such essence unfulfilled to friendship.
We will come to it again another day.
Long would
be the telling of this aching hand whose heart shall hold friends and
teach the art to many in that country that cannot be said, between whose
spirits the potency of difference so gladly spreads to uncover and display
a growth to all things new.
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